Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Restless & Upwardly Mobile

Does your logic and reason ever come in direct conflict with your wants and desires? Have you ever had so many wonderful options that you simply couldn't choose? Have you ever come to a fork in the road of life and simply been incapable of choosing your life's direction? It's like a head-on train wreck. Seriously people! Let's talk brain-drama for a minute. I'm freaking out like a little girl. Oh My God, You Guys!

Here's the situation I am in:

I graduated from college with a degree in Psychology which has little application in the modern world. But it leaves my schedule wonderfully free and open. I am no longer anchored to a morning schedule.

I am becoming more financially liberated. That leaves room for more options to spend (Do I buy a house? Do I get a new wardrobe? Do I pay off my car?)

I have worked in my current job in the corporate world for 5 years. I desire a change in a major way. I want something new and exciting that will challenge me and pay me for it.

There are positions available within my corporation that pay well and offer benefits, but also involved sitting in a cubicle for 8 hours a day.

I really want a change of scenery. I want to be in the service of others.

I am desperate to move to SLC and be closer to my friends. I want to date quality guys who aren't in the closet or under the watchful eye of BYU.

The economy sucks you guys! Jobs are scarce. Upward mobility it stagnant. Nobody is hiring and anyone who currently holds down a good job is a seriously lucky duck. I fit into this category. Do I give that up?

So, Jeromy what's the problem?

Do I risk my current good-paying and stable job to follow my dreams and desires by moving to SLC and getting a less-stable lower-paying job and a house of my own, and thus giving up stability and upward mobility in my current job and living situation?

THAT IS THE QUESTION.

Checklist of personal biases:

  • I hate Utah County
  • I am usually afraid of change. The idea of moving and getting a new job scares the crap out of me. So moving to SLC would take some big-time courage and willingness to take risks
  • SLC is a much bigger pond. Socially I'll be the new guy. (which can be hot in a way, but also lonely at times)
  • My taste in housing and roommates is extravagant. Moving to SLC would probably include going cheap on both fronts. I'd have to lower my standards at first, to make ends meet in SLC.

I am afraid to pray about this because I know that I need to be more aware of my own feelings and impressions BEFORE I consult a higher power. I'll be able to approach the Father with more poise and humility if I'm more self-aware. And I'll be more open to new ideas if I've cross-examined myself first. That way a stroke of humility won't be so surprising if and when the Father decides to put the smack down.

This is my situation. Feel free to advise me.

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